The 50 day challenge

A few people have told me that it can't be done. If I have learned anything from life it is that you can achieve anything you put your mind to. I have a real plan. Exercise in the morning, stick to my diet, and walk an hour in the store everyday. I am into my second day, and it is going well. I have lost about seven pounds so far. A lot of people think I can't do this, but it is important to understand if I fail that I will still have lost weight and that is good. I will succeed though. One hundred pound in fifty days. Love ya guy.

Sports Update Sweet Sixteen

Both the men and women Spartans have made it to the sweet sixteen. The women beat Duke in sound fashion, it was very fitting. Love ya guy.

New Bucket List Entry

See the Red Wings in a playoff game at the Joe.
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Why Am I Mad?

The truth is I am mad at myself. I think I have wallowed in self pity for too long. I stopped caring and shut down for a long time. I am mad at you, that hasn't changed, what has changed is I can truly voice it and understand it. I know all about the stages of grief and I have finally accepted your passing. I accept the loss, and accept that it didn't have to happen, but it did happen. I miss you. Anyway these postings will be more often and have a different tone. On Monday march 23rd I am starting a challenge for myself. I WILL LOSE 100 POUNDS IN 50 DAYS. I am not doing this for you, I am doing it for my son so he doesn't have to lose his dad too soon. I will post my progress hopefully everyday if not every couple of days. The challenge will be talked about in each post as well as other things. Things that we would have talked about if you were still here. Love ya guy.

Where am I

I don't know where I am. It has been a year and a half basically since you passed. I am still mad at you because you just had to pull that line. You couldn't let yourself heal, you robbed me and my son of ever getting to know you. That is why I am mad. You didn't have to die, that facility should have kept a better eye on you, they should have listened to the tube and made sure. You have left an extreme void in my life, and I don't know how to fill it. What I have been doing isn't smart or helping. I don't want to see you for a long time, but if I don't change things I will probably see you soon. I want to talk to you on my terms. I want you to know you are not forgotten, but you left a lot of people with a hole in their hearts where you used to be. I miss you everyday, I think about you in some way everyday. I need to be mad at you for awhile right now, I need to use my anger to snap myself out of my own funk. You are gone, and nothing will replace you and nothing will bring you back. My son will not really remember his grandpa Pancost and any other children I have will never know you. I will be mad at you for awhile. I will never stop loving you, but right now I am choosing anger. Love ya guy.

Spartans won big ten

The Spartans won the big ten outright, but lost the tournament. The NCAA tournament starts next week. We got a second seed, we could have gotten a one seed if we had won the big ten tournament. Love ya guy.